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'Cus I believe I'm pretty dead!

I do not suffer an artblock nor lack of interest as far as creativity is concerned, I just feel reluctant to share anything at the moment, as if the art became too personal, and, as being such, too vulnerable to lay open and bare against the surface of the earth so that anyone whom chooses to stumble upon here is free to look and have an opinion on it.
And thus I retreat further and further into the outskirts of my own ( not always blessed) mind.

It also helps... or actually quite the opposite... that my current muse is not one to share with the world...
Add lack of time... and we soon are at a point of being highly inactive.

I miss the conversations though... the sheer joy of sharing the thoughts of one artist to another, the silent secretes that always lay hidden underneath the surface and just the social comunication and making of new friends, and making stronger old friendships.

But, the way it is now, is most likely the way it will continue for just a while longer - until life, muse, time, money and self are sorted out.

Remember I love you and that my lack of activity does not mean I forgot about you or no longer support you... Life is just too consuming; as is the muse.

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So, Christmas ended and the 'new' year started with the same old routines
It kinda forced me to change my icon... wearing a Christmas hat until late Summer might look a bit weird ...
But, none the less, it's still perfect. :aww:

I'm not going to do all the yadayada of good wishes and all that bull- I believe others have done that enough and hey! It's already the second day
new years is old news. I just wish for you to ALWAYS be fine. GREAT even.

Hey, Maitso! You're rambling!

Yeah, yeah, I know...

So...features:

Better Left Unsaid.You'll be a lawyer-
I'll be a writer. 
You'll probably make more money but-
At least we'll both be doing things we love.
And we'll live on a farm,
Just like you always wanted and...
I want to marry you-
I can't imagine myself with anyone else.
But you don't know that. 
We'd both laugh if I told you. 
So it's better left unsaid. 
I can see us staying up late...
Watching kiddie movies and eating chocolate ice cream. 
And having candle lit dates on our bedroom floor-
Taco Bell, of course. 
And on winter evenings, we'll curl up on the couch...
With hot chocolate...
As I read aloud to you-
From a book of my choice, of course. 
But you don't know this...
You'd think I was weird if I told you.
So it's better left unsaid. 
And one day we'll pick out a huge chair.
A chair for cuddling.
And when I'm sad-
You'll hold me in our chair...
And we'll both stay real quiet,
Taking each other in.
And eventually we'll start to talk-
Quiet murmurs at first...
And eve
<--- read it, you won't regret it, it moved me beyond proper comments and I had to get back in order to say something sane.

Deserted Sanctuary II by AbandonedZone
Rain by bramLeech Remember Me by NanFe
Wings of Kynareth by 88grzes
Rain by anndr Forest Journey by JoachimB
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The Hound by RinaCane
Forest pond by axl99
Noel by ArchiaOryix Roses by CrystalCurtisArt
PH: Chessmaster by numina-namine
Chains - RVH by kittrose Boals Eli by kittrose
Homo homini lupus est by raspberryDA Final Fantasy VII - Vincent Valentine by vaxzone
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That to be said... now let's move on to features.



This one is so AWESOME, I just don't have words for it.And I am proud to admit it is my current desktop image :meow:
Santa Claus is Coming to Town by Vimeddiee <-- :worship:


++ COMMISSION ++ NOX by alexzappa Digital Sketch : Zakeriel by Vyrhelle-VyrL
:thumb342292041: because good Iorveth arts are hard to find :aww:
Youre the blood in me by fdasuarez ... yup... a female... my... I'm slipping....
Fintan O Dwyer by fdasuarez
Trion by JenniferHealy
elegy by TenSkies Yush, this artist needs a feature every single time, but that's okay, because the arts differ so much in style, it just feels like new found love again and again.
once again by anndr
Time to breakfast! by MVzor PERFECT Iorveth art, makes me squirm in envy.
Something vulnerable about him... and I say it again, if you like hot-males, especially the long haired ones she is so worth a watch! You won't be disappointed, evah!


Updates about me???? Nah, let's not do that.

:icontardglompplz: Just thank you for sticking by me :iconsoftglompplz:

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Our community and the epidemic of indifference
by ~Vinvalenwind




In the several months I've been offline, changes occurring day-by-day in our community  naturally would appear more 'radical' for me than for the folks who have been here on a daily basis during that same time.

Here's what I've found...and I promise I'm not exaggerating.

In listening to a significant number of artists and authors since my return, a certain matter -one seldom voiced in times past (its almost like a taboo- like in doing so folks will jinx themselves) is all the more noticeable. There are entirely too many of these lovely, talented people who are becoming increasingly disappointed in their creative efforts.

Now mind you that not everything artists and authors create is going to be wildly popular. That's just the law of averages. As artists and writers, we first create to satisfy our own needs. In so doing, we all have periods where even we feel less than satisfied with our work, but in attempting to remain obvjective, we push that self-doubt aside and post those efforts for public view anyway.

And then comes the response...or rather the insidious, growing lack thereof. If you think the sentiment expressed in my comment signature has to do with any given person's self-indulgent ego-stroking whining and/or ranting, please think again. Its becoming an epidemic of growing disappointment among the people whose work we admire so much, feeding an even more self-defeating sense of 'why should I bother anymore?' and the vicious cycle of negative self-criticism continues.

In certain instances, there have been authors who actually removed their work from a site due to bullying from members of other fandoms. It makes the positive reinforcement only we can offer through our own commentary all the more important...even vital. A single, sincere 'well done' or 'I really enjoyed this' or 'keep up the great work' can make all the difference in the world (especially if one is timid about offering commentary because the sheer quality of what they've done leaves us in awe- personal experience speaking here, but I'm becoming a lot braver than I used to be ) and quite possibly make the difference in whether someone whose work we've loved is encouraged and re-inspired or else gives up entirely. In such instances we have no right to complain when these talented folks quietly disappear from our midst.

Lets get real, folks... and quite bluntly (because I'm old enough now to not be timid about speaking my mind) lets get off our lazy take-them for-granted asses and speak up. We aren't entitled to a damned thing, especially in continually gobbling down the fruit of their efforts and then  running to other sites to repost them without offering even a 'thank you' to the original creators.

I'm throwing down the gauntlet. Find someone to encourage today. And tomorrow. And the day after that. We are the only ones who can make a difference.

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:thumb335430637: <-- It really deserves more love :heart:

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:thumb335629092: Darios by ArchiaOryix

Lucian Smoking by MirageMari
Cicero_____ by Milulya diary of madness by Milulya
Commission: Connor Ilekham Assassin by KejaBlank David Garrett 5 by whiteshaix

Getting hot [new update] by Matiazi Be mean... [updated] by Matiazi <-- I love this artist so much
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A Lonely Road by alicexz:thumb336867690:
The first dawn by anndr mail service by TenSkies

Mature Content

Sketch - Girl on Bed by Gorrem
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Everything But The Rain by NanFe:thumb333010456:

Digital Sketch : Raekwon by Vyrhelle-VyrL

Loki Meets The Doctor by Witty-Allowishus


And that's it. :hug:

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